me and the clown

Have you ever heard about the sad clown
He makes his tricks and make you smile
and under the mask he is dawn
With makeup he draws a smile
But his eye are nearly drawn
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People laugh and say he is fun
The happiest man ever been
But all he think of is ding by his own gun
and never feels what he is feeling
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Have you every seen a clown cry
Telling you pleas i wana die
Set my soul just to fly
I will make you smile even when i say bye
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This is the life of the clown
He makes his tricks and make you smile
and under the mask he is dawn
With makeup he draws a smile
But his eye are nearly drawn
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Some thing similar to mine
But he has make up and a mask
I can only act that im fine
and yet i fake my own mask
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This is the life of me and the clown
We makes our tricks and make you smile
and under the mask we are dawn
With faking we draws a smile
But our eye are nearly drawn

happy birthday

When ever im sad

when ever im sad
My eyes full with tears
When ever i feel bad
Surrounded with fears
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I stand alone
Remembering the days
Looking for home
That takes the tears away
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You are gone
So far away
It is done
So far away
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Friend angel more than all
Sister brother even more
A sweet arm hold me when i fall
Some thing i cant ignore
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You are gone
So far away
It is done
So far away
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I used to tell you every thing
Even the secrets of my sad way
I don't be leave this is happening
I cant even say happy birthday
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You are gone
So far away
It is done
So far away
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the broken window

Between the wind blow
I stand alone
Looking at the broken window
Splashed all around my home
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Nothing is moving with the wind blow
Except peaces of my broken heart
Wind that used to make me flow
Is starting to tare me apart
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I started gathering the peaces
Which one is the window and which is my heart
I search all peaces in all the place's
To find just one part
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I opened ever single door
To find Just that single part
What I'm saying and looking for
You are not a single part you are all my heart
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Between the wind blow
I stand alone
Looking at the broken window
Splashed all around my home

questions and answers

Questions and a lot more
All the answers are ignored
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Is it me who keeps you safe
Is it me who make you smile
Do you see me in every place
Even in your memory file
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Questions and a lot more
All the answers are ignored
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I'm I in your dreams
I'm I the one you need
Do i take your fears
Is it me in deed
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Questions and a lot more
All the answers are ignored
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To day I will be gone
Can you stay and ignore
All the Questions will be done
I will fine my home
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Questions and a lot more
All the answers are ignored
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You can see me in this place
I never leave never
The smile never leaves my face
Also if I'm in  fire
Remember me in your grace
and look at the sky I will be higher
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Questions and a lot more
All the answers are ignored
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eye spark

I want to go back
And say it again
I want the fact
I want all the pain
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Is it the same you
The one I loved
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Do you have the same smile
Does your eyes spark
I want to hold the phone and deal
And meet you in the nearest park
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Is it the same you
The one I loved
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I want to stand in the park
And shout in the air
I still see her spark
I want to love you is it fair
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Is it the same you
The one I loved
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Can I hold your hand
And bow one my knee
I love you and I always had
Can you be mine can it be
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Is it the same you
The one I love
I will say it to you
Its you who I always loved

the memory book

I started throwing the past

Every memory every book

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The 1st page flow with a smile

You me and our favorite place

I didn't know I can smile

I think it was because of your face

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I started throwing the past

Every memory every book

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The 2nd page flow with a cry

You where sad was it me

I started looking at the page fly

Was it me was it me was it me

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I started throwing the past

Every memory every book

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The 3rd page flow with me alone

Me standing counting the day

I don't know where is home

You wanted just to play

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I started throwing the past

Every memory every book

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The last page flow with the dark

I couldn't see any thing

I waited waited and it was blank

What happened in the end

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I started throwing the past

Every memory every book

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And nothing came out

I started holding the pages

Crying laud and shout

Take every thing out in rage

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I started throwing the past

Every memory every book

Until the day I passed

And the tears filled the book

i learned

I know this life is short
You need to learn fast
Your ship land in every port
And leaves so fast
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I learned to be sad
And never cry
I learned to be bad
And never ask why
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I learned to hide
And never say a thing
I learn about pride
And never say a thing
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I learned what I learned
That that is life
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Tll the day you came
And became my life
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I learned to be sad
And you wipe my tears
I learned to be bad
And you punish me
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I learned to hide
And you can read me
I learn about pride
And you made me
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I know this life is short
You need to learn fast
Your ship land in every port
And leaves so fast
This time my ship is in a port
That will never leave fast
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With you my life is long
And i don't need to learn a thing

how and how

How can i get my life
How can I stay alive
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How can I stop
And never look behind
And start to go up
Leave every thing behind
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How can i get my life
How can I stay alive
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How did you do it
To just move and forget
Can I do it
Or I just take what I get
Pain and sadness I'm full of it
Is it that I will never forget
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How can i get my life
How can I stay alive
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Do I need to cry
My eyes are dry
Do I need to fly
How how and why
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Just please show me the way
How can I be like you
How can i get my life
How can I stay alive
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friends

People always happy
They seem never sad
Some aren't even funny
But that is not bad
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A word easy to say
But its really great
some thing money can't buy
Or catch it with a bait
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Yes its friendship
A ship that's hard to sink
I had a lot o them
Some with a good captain
And some just sink
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I learned a lot from this journey
I learned to have a heart
friends used me and burn me
friends love to see me hurt
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But I did some thing wrong
I called every one a friend
Some with them I didn't belong
But I stayed calling them friends
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They used me
They played me
In the name of friends
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But do you know what
I learned a lot from this journey
I learned to have a heart
Friend are angels
Friends are some thing great
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You need to be careful
And never be dawn
If this earth was with good people full
Then we will never learn the meaning of being down

do you know what is love

Do you know what is dry
It isn't a desert with no water
It isn't a sea with no fish
It is a heart with no love
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Do you know what is sad
It isn't when you lose your home
It isn't when your alone
It is when you lose who you love
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Do you know who am I
I'm not who you think
I'm not a sweet home
I'm not who you loved
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Do you know what happened
It isn't what you think
It isn't what the life did
It is what they call love
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Do you know what's love
Love is dry
Love is sad
Love is me
Love is what happend
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Do you know what's the end
End of my life
The start of yours
End of my smile
The start of yours
End of my tears
When I see yours

who are you

Who are you
From where did u came
Who are you who
Their is nothing the same
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You are an angel
Some thing so beautiful
Are you an angel
Cause you make me cheerful
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Don't care what people say
Or what do they do
They try every bad way
To do what you do
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They want to be an angel
Just like you
Being beautiful from all angle
Exactly like you
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I didn't know what's the meaning to see
Or why we need our eyes
When I saw you I under stand
I have my eyes to see beautiful people
You or you and only you
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Who are you
From where did u came
Who are you who
Their is nothing the same

touch my hand

You showed up from the sky
You came from a place so high
Touch my hand and I will fly
And never think of saying bye
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Are you even human
Or you are some thing more
Just where have you been
Or u where there but been ignored
Was that what's happened
I'll love u like no one did before
I will draw a smile that's shine
And never make you feel ignored
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Touch my hand and I will fly
And never think of saying bye
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you look so pretty
Also if you are so small
Ur smile makes me happy
That I will give it all
U made another meaning for beauty
That will make the moon fall
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Touch my hand and I will fly
And never think of saying bye

under the sky

Under the sky the light blue
The sweet light start turn to dark
So sad you just don't know what to do
You think if you are good or jerk
Watching the fading lovely blue
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You think life is starting to go
Your laugh smile every thing you know
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Next to the sea you set
Staring at the angry waves
Asking what did you get
No one answers expect the waves
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You just see the darken sky
Trying to share your sad life
The darkness starts to cry
From the tears I sow life
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A white beautiful flower
Just came from the air
The dark sky shower
And the dirt's of the sand share
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Some times dirt's and water
combine like our life
To create a beautiful flower
Which is full of life
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Under the sky the light blue
The sweet light start turn to dark

reach the sky

Looking at the sky
The lovely blue
Trying to fly
By a car or a boat
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Reach my hand so high
I just wana touch it
I just wana say hi
And leave it
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Tell one day a hand showed up
And I reached my hand
Just to take me up
I didn't know it was bad
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My death was near
My soul was going
But I had no fear
Happy for going
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Reach my hand so high
I just wana touch it
I just wana say hi
And leave it
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One thing I didn't know
Their was no going back
I did suicide you know
Lost the way back
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No more home
No more sky
No more home
I say bye
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Looking at the sky
The lovely blue
Trying to fly
By a car or a boat
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question

I wana see the light
I don't wana be sad
I was in a fight
That felt so bad
And there came a bright
Just what is that?
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It came from the sky
I had to let go
I started to fly
On the water I flow
I felt so high
Just who r u who?
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I started to heal
From a smile
Is that real
Or a story from ur file
I just wana know
What's the deal?
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I seen ur sure
Your lovely sand
That's what I came for
Ur lovely hand
Is that just you
Or I'm in love??
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Can any one feel
What is going on
I'm starting to heal
I found my home
Is that for real???
Or as usal a dream ??

The Light

Can you see the light
I only see dark
If every thing is right
Why is the best back
In the top of the hight
I heard a dog park
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I used to hear an angel
And it turned to a dog
You looked hot from every angle
But now we are out of the fog
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I can see what you are
Not what you want me to see
Now we are so far
ill be what I wana be
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You think I am lost
You had made me blind
I thought you are the best
But you stab me in the back
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Can you see the light
I only see dark
If every thing is right
Why is the best back

A Memory of a dead person

All the light just dim away
When I see that hole
I can't talk what can I say
Taking me down I don't wana fall
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Its so dark here
why was i left alone
My heart is full with fear
I wana go home
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This is my body where is my soul
Darkness around me
What is that hole
Can it really be
I'm really gone
Or I'm just dreaming of me
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Is that my grave
Is it where I belong
How did I behave
How long was I here how long
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I started to open my eye
To see the light again
I realized what was I
What was that pain
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The hole was you
The darkness was your heart
My soul was with you
My body was teared apart
The dreams was of me but it was really you
No one can see his grave I just sow my heart
And I realized me and you
Only one word apart

A BETTER PLACE

 This life is nothing
A place not for me
At last its hapening
Nearly it will be
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I know its a hard way
And will make me bleed
My soul will fly
And thing it will need
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I'm leaving earth to a better place
I'm goen some place that I can say home
Where I can't see any face
Where I will be happy to be alone
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At last I'm leaving
At last I will be just a soul
My body will not be bleeding
I will get out of this hole
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I'm not emo or sad
I just can't smile
I don't wana be bad
Or fake every smile
Nothing I ever had
Except ppl smile
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I'm leaving earth to a better place
I'm goen some place that I can say home
Where I can't see any face
Where I will be happy to be alone

will not heal

No one will know
What I always feel
I just go below
The sadness won't heal
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I dnt wana cry
Or show my tears
I just wana fly
Never hear what I hear
I know I will die
Never gana heal
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I don't love to fake
I wana smile for real
I take other people ache
Just to make them heal
My sadness I can't take
I just can't stop what I feel
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One day I will go
That's for real
No one will ever know
What I used to feel
I just go below
The sadness won't heal
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People are around
I feel alone
Im near the ground
Where is home
I know what I found
Its my doom
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No one will ever know
What I used to feel
I just go below
The sadness won't heal